Jun 23, 2010

Master of My Own Destiny

18" x 30" oil

Master of My Own Destiny is a strong and balanced painting. I began my day today with no intention of painting, but as I ate my morning cereal, this painting popped into my head and once I went into the studio, it just all came out of the brush and knife and less than an hour later, this 18" x 30" catharsis was sitting on my easel, full of soul, love, and longing. Let me explain that last bit: art is great for sharing, and art is what I do, so I'm not too shy to say that the last bit of life for me has just been hard. I've felt some failure and disappointment. I've not painted much, so I think that's why today's painting leapt from the brush: it was all stored up inside.
Here is a poem I wrote to summarize the meaning of this painting:

The roar of the sea within my heart
laments the chances lost,
laments the failures keenly felt,
laments the sorrow's cost.

But it does not do to hide inside,
to never risk a fall,
to never try to live or die,
to never try to fly.

The sea, it says "I can be strong,
I can rise up again,
I can be free of chains and night,
I can succeed." And then-

My diligence is born of strife
My path's laid out as light.
The sun it rises steadily:
My destiny, my life.


Kathleen said...

Beautiful Cristall.

Sunny said...

Beautiful! So much more so knowing what went into it. You may have missed your calling as a poet too. That was great. Hard times are often a muse. You certainly are the master of your own destiny!

Allanna said...

Love the detail shots. ^_^

ArringtonZoo said...

Thank you for the glimpse into your heart. The painting is beautiful as is the poem.

Helen Read said...

I love the energy it exudes!

Nicki said...


This painting is breathtaking. It exudes passion, it has soul. I love each and every detail you chose to show us. I'm so glad you listened to yourself and went to the studio even though it wasn't originally planned. And I'm sorry that things have been hard lately.

As Dory says in "Finding Nemo", "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."

Rachel@oneprettything.com said...

That is really beautiful! I love it and the poem. This was my first visit to your blog and I feel so happy and inspired. Viewing art is one of my favorite things to do and your pieces really pull me in.

Karen Appleton said...

Cristall, I am so glad to have visited your blog today. Thank you for the beautiful painting, the honesty and the beautiful poem. Thank you for sharing!